Ask Kianna: Accepting our humanity
Kianna Garmanian, Staff Writer
Dear Kianna, one thing I constantly struggle with is learning how to come to terms with my humanity. How can I serve the Lord and do his work if I am constantly making mistakes and failing? I don’t feel “good” enough for God. Do you have any advice? -Anonymous
To the wonderful individual who sent in this message- thank you. Your words bring a smile to my face because of how much I, and many others, can relate to the feelings you described. Your question is spot on, as you ponder how we as imperfect people can even strive to do good in this world or follow the will of the Lord. I sincerely hope that I can share with you a few truths I have learned throughout the years that have brought me comfort and assurance about this topic.
Take it from me, I am about as imperfect as it gets. Each day, I make many mistakes and mess up all the time. Do you know why? Because I am human. But, do you want to know something? It’s okay to be human, in fact, it’s wonderful to be human. Our humanity, in all its goodness and imperfections is beautiful.
In fact, about a year ago, I really struggled with exactly what you described in your message. At the end of each day, I found it extremely challenging to carry out Christ’s mission of love. I always felt like I had a good heart that was glued inside a very imperfect individual. In other words, I desired more than anything to do Christ’s work and love others but felt unqualified to do so because of my own sinful actions. For a long time, I let this idea prevent me from carrying out the Lord’s mission. I didn’t feel good or worthy enough to be considered a disciple of Christ.
Seeking guidance, I approached my parish priest and shared my thoughts and feelings with him. I now wish to share with you what was told to me, as these words brought tremendous peace into my life.
He said that God does not expect us to do everything right. In fact, he knows that because we are all imperfect individuals, we will mess up on a daily basis. Here’s the truth, all that matters is that you try. God focuses on the effort you put into learning how to become a Christ-like individual who is unafraid to love others. He does not expect us to live our lives perfectly, but instead, hopes that we sincerely desire and work on becoming a good person, rooted in the virtues that Jesus displayed for us all. Once I began to understand this message, I started believing that I was worthy enough to do God’s work. Yes, I make a ton of mistakes. Yes, I am not proud of any of my wrongdoings. But, I am enough. I know what my heart desires, and I really do want to make a positive impact in the lives of others. My intentions, my hopes, and my sincerity are all that matter in God’s eyes.
So, I want to extend this message to you and all others who have dealt with similar feelings because it is one of the most important truths you’ll ever hear: You are good enough. You are worthy. God knows your heart and he completely understands the meaning behind your actions and feelings. Don’t be discouraged if you feel like you are constantly failing at being a loving individual. If you mess up, get back up and try again. You are worthy enough to be a disciple of Christ because that is who God is calling you to be. Furthermore, he calls each and every one of us to take on a different mission during our earthly lives so that together, we can bring peace, love, and goodness to our world. God is asking for your heart, not your perfection. So, I invite you to be fearless; be fearless to love in the name of Christ. He will guide you, I promise.
Some of the greatest Saints were the greatest sinners. To be a Saint certainly does not mean to be perfect or without sin, it means to embrace our humanity and strive with our whole hearts and minds to follow Christ. A Saint places their full trust in God, even when their humanity seems overbearing and overwhelming.
Finally, one important reminder that a priest told me was to call upon the Holy Spirit. Ask the Spirit to guide you in your daily life. You will be surprised to learn about the many ways in which you will receive guidance and graces. It’s time to wake up and realize that you are the vessel in which God is intending to work through. Continue striving for goodness, my friend. May our Lord’s blessings shine upon you and direct your path.